The plaque was round with a blue background. The inscription in the middle was something I scarcely could understand at the time, but even now, it floats it's way back to me often. It's fairly common:
Life is a journey,
Not a destination
In it's simplest form I get what it means. What it has meant at various points in my life is not that simple.
What a journey I've been on this past year...and what a tremendous adventure the last 3 months in NYC has provided me.
At this time last year, if you reach into some of the archives, you can almost feel the crushing sadness that was emanating from every single part of me. This week marks the moment when everything came crashing down around me. It also marks the moment when I was forced to start to a new chapter.
Because looking back has proven time and time again to be futile and destructive, I am looking forward. I was forced to start a new chapter against everything I wanted. I started on this new path kicking and screaming (and crying) but as I look out my apartment window tonight, in the greatest city in the world, I feel...
Strong.
Certainly, not always. But definitely, more often.
I thought there would be a magical moment when I would be "healed". I thought there would be an overriding peace when I arrived in NYC. Instead, everything this past year has taught me has been another step forward...not a final stop.
I am still settling into this new life but I feel incredibly lucky to be here - in this city, in this life stage, in this moment.
Strong.
2 comments:
Yeah strong is a great word. For myself I think strong means honest, and sometimes that means we may not always feel strong, but if we are honest we are.
In other words a strong person can be sad at times. As a matter of fact the not so strong people bury their sadness, and find ways of escape, in various hobbies of some sort.
I think hobbies can be destructive if they are a form of escape. Whether it is drinking, or Dungeons and Dragons, or Video games, or even exercise.
Our life is more than one thing, and some people want to make it just one thing, but that isn't healthy.
I think you are healthy, because you have a very colorful personality. I have been by your side for a bit too, and have enjoyed it, and will continue to. :)
Have a good one Mindee. :)
xoxo
p.s. The Tigers suck!!! :)
Every day is a blessing and we should live it to the fullest! You'll feel at home in the new digs soon enough.
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